Tomorrow, I'm meeting a really good friend of mine that I haven't seen in 3 years. She moved away from school to live in France and she's in NYC and she wants to see me and we are going to go swimming. My other friend was talking about her and how she was skinny and stuff. I'm pretty sure she's tall and skinny and tall leads up to pretty. I know it's stupid but I want the impression I give her to be: tall, skinny, beautiful, kind, gentle, angel-like, smart, understanding...basically an"angel" or "girl next door" or "good/nice/perfect girl".



I generally am like that but when I'm with friends, I can get crazy and I'm also shy. I was also told she was smart. I feel bad but I mainly want to give her the impression that I am skinny. It's an evil thought but she's always been more than me and I want to be a little superior for once. Is that so bad?





How can I try to make this happen?