So here is like.. the back story. Ben and I went out in 2010 for 4 months, and we broke up ( we arent technically allowed to date he is right now 17 , im turning 14 in 2 months) but I saw him again in April. I used to talk about him with my best friend a lot. Back the first time we dated, he is best friends with my best friends older brother, So i would see him at their lake house. Iv slept with him( not sex just in his arms) since the night before we started going out. August 16. After we broke up I was torn. I talked about him all the time i feel like I really love him as I always have. Once I started seeing him again back in April, he started to ... Idk show signs he still loved me. Held my hand when i was upset and stayed near me. On October 26 we started dating again. Ever since I havent been able to let him go. Whenever Im with him, my heart feels right. Im not scared. Im just calm. Ben makes me feel beautiful and is the only one who can get me to eat. We began haging out ( behind my parents back) from december to january when we were caught. When I do see him which is usually every school day, or now 2 or 3 times a week before marching band hell hold me and it feels like cloud 9 for me. Iv never felt so much love, I feel complete with him. Every night (no matter where he is ) he calls me to make sure I get to sleep, because I have really bad nightmares all the time and if he stays and talks to me while i sleep I dont have nightmares. He gave me his jacket so I could smell him if I needed to calm down. Hes everything to me and I never want to loose him.
Now to this Sunday:
We found a way for me , dede , and Ben to meet at the movie theater. ( i call this our first official date.) The whole movie I sat snuggled in his arms. He kissed my head, my cheek :) everything. ( we saw a wedding movie with babies and everything that I love and he knows that) He traced my lips with his finger, kept telling me how beautiful I was and how much he loves me with all his