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Payton Avery




10 Jul 1998


Hey :) My name is Payton, (go by Pay) and i love to stand out from the crowd. Im a model and play the tuba for my schools traveling symphonic band :)

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pay asked:

02 Jan 2012


A bunch of people at school call me fat and ugly and just..torment me. and when im on the internet It happens even worse and girls think im fishing for attention or just plain ugly.. and I just.. wanna die. It kills me inside and i dont know what to do anymore. i went to therapy and it just made it worse. my family pretty much hates me ( you may think im just over reacting but i really am not.) so they dont help anid im always in pain. I used to love playing music. but my band teacher (the one person who actually loved me and had faith in me and made me happy who i trusts) disapperred off the face of the earth and i havent. seen him in 9 months. The replacement hates me because im a girl tuba player. he thinks i cant do it. i dont know what to do anymore.. please dont think im trying to get attention :..( i just dont know what to do..



dragana94 says:

Posted on 02 Jan 2012

About those little,bad, awful persons in your school DON'T pay attention.They just don't have better things to do,so they judge,offend others.This really makes me angry,try to ignore them don't give them that satisfaction,the only person who can make you feel bad is you.So if you keep positive opinion,you are good.
You are not to trying get attention,you just want someone to understands you.If music makes you happy,keep doing that,keep practicing,play whenever you have time (maybe you are our magical tuba player).I know it easier said than done,but try to have positive opinion,ppl are bad unfortunately,but there are good ones,you just need to find it.
And about that dieing thing,DON'T ever think about it,you life so valuable,You need to experience so nice things in life,to explore new things.Look at this as a small bump on the road.If you wanna talk,I'm here.Good luck and don't worry about it.
P.S you are gorgeous :)


alexx_barbie says:

Posted on 03 Jan 2012

Hey pleeeease please please don't do it! Think of how your life would be if your mom ,dad,gramma, brother,or someone else you really care about killed themselves ? You can't even imagine how much they're hearts would hurt if you ended your life! And I don't think you're overreacting at all! I know how painful words and actions of others can be trust me! And honestly I always used to wish I were dead too! But just realize you're here for a reason and suicide isn't the way to end your problems! Text me girl! 4199737852. Seriously if you feel like no one cares, I do!


jackie_walsh says:

Posted on 03 Jan 2012

Hey Pay, I know it'd hard when all these things are going on. But please don't even consider what you mentioned doing. As bad as things seem, you at least have a chance to fix them. I mean, think about never playing the tuba again or model again. You don't want that!

So therapy didn't work. Maybe you had the wrong therapist. I think you should start again because you have to get to the root of your problems before moving forward. And your family need 2 be involved too. They probably don't really hate you, but they probably don't understand you very well.

So look at it this way: It's anew year and things can change. You can find new friends; your teacher will realize that girls can play the tuba too! So try to be positive but please stick around. We all need you.


3nir says:

Posted on 03 Jan 2012

Suicide is never the solution dear. What you're facing is a temporary problem and suicide is a permanent way to land in hell and suffer worst than this forever.
Things are bad now, but it will get better.
I used to think my mom hates me but over the time I understood what made her hate me. You should try to find out that and work on it?
And whatever happening now is not gonna last forever. You'll grow older and can move out anywhere better you want.


3nir says:

Posted on 03 Jan 2012

And lastly, ignore whoever is disturbing you. It might be a bit hard but just do that.


pweddieprincess says:

Posted on 03 Jan 2012

hunnie imma be straight wid u....anywhere u go in this world...ur going to find retarded b****** tht have nothing to do with their life beside judge ur solution to the problem ur gonna make things way worst....cuz its a sin and they will be happy...especially if theyre give a s**** bout them becuz the last time u checked u werent born to plz any body :)


pweddieprincess says:

Posted on 03 Jan 2012

ohhhh did i mention ur a beauty? nope?....well u are!! C:


rockqueenbre says:

Posted on 04 Jan 2012

Yeah all the things the other girls say r what ur used to hearing but its true. U r beautiful. My friends were called sluts for the longest time. they were too afaird to stand up. So i came up and straigt up talked to the kids. BTW if u die by killing yourself, what will it do for u . You die and thats it. Just stay alive. You could move and forget everything. But trust me when thoose people are older they will regret everything. Dont ruin everything by dieing.


shay_shay says:

Posted on 07 Jan 2012

That's okay. Everyone hates me too. People think I'm on meth or heroine because of how skinny I am. It's NOT pretty. Being underweight is disgusting. I am a recovering anorexic, and I struggle with depression. I know what it's like to want to escape from the world forever. Continue with your musical journey. Along that path, you will find people that make you happy :)

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