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Rebecca Palmer



Haven't been on here in AGES! How are we all? Lovin' autumn break (:

15 Feb 1995


My name is Rebecca, but everyone calls me Bec or Becca. I am a drama finatic, and are starting my school certificate this year. I am pretty smart, but im funny too. There is no way i fit into the category of nerd! I love music, but i cant sing or play, and i want to be a surgeon or an actor when i grow up. When i finish school im going to travel the world, and i have plans to find an amazing husband and to have amazing kids.!

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Published on: 18 Dec 2010 by becca_16

Teen Suicide

This year, about two months ago, my friend (let's call her Jane) committed suicide. She was only 14 years old; several weeks from her 15th birthday. She was beautiful. Naturally brunette, she had died her hair black, but to tell you the truth it suited her. She had green eyes and an amazing smile. Her sneeze was tiny, and really sounded like an angels version of "achoo". We always teased her for that. :) She knew how to make you laugh, but she also knew how to cut you to the core. When i think of her i smile. 


But there were things in her life that brought her down. You see, she met this girl (lets call her katy) and in year 8 they became a couple. But Katy knew how desperately Jane needed her, and she played this to her advantage. Jane was constantly left hanging, or being screwed with, while katy did what she pleased. This tore away all Jane's self confidence, when what she needed most was love.


Not to mention her home life. Her brother had raped her when she was 7. Her dad abused her and so many things were going on for her that i don't even know. She took to cutting herself, and we (my friends and i) tried to get her help. I told teachers and my parents, and they talked to Jane, but let's just say that made it worse for her. She took to drinking nail polish remover, and tried to kill herself...but it didn't work the first time.


She gave up for a while. and we honestly thought she was through it...that she was coming back to us. We got on with our lives...and then one afternoon my friend came round and told me she was gone. She had hung herself in her room...a cut running up her arm. She left no note...that was it. She was gone.


Its been two months and several days, but when i hear suicide on the news, or in stories, it still cuts me to the core. It still makes me cry. I wish i had have seen this coming. i wish i had have known what to say to her. But i didn't and i'll blame myself for that every day. Because sometimes i made things worse for her. 


So i guess my point is to watch out. Pay attention to your friends lives. Listen and hold them when they cry and most of all say the things you assume you have all the time in the world for, because you never know. One day you might wake up and find that they're gone.





danyooz says:

Posted on 18 Dec 2010

That's sad :( :( Her own brother raped her?! :( :( May she rest in peace :) And to you get well soon. I know that your heart must be aching. So i Hope you get better :)


xxxscreamingmaydayxxx says:

Posted on 19 Dec 2010

This is very sad..but..I must add one thing... For anyone who read this who is thinking about suicide; Think about this... You taking your own life makes many people give up on theirs... For father commited suicide when I was 11 years old. I felt dead for about...2 and a half years after that...I was going to kill myself..but then I went to go see my grandma(my dads mom) and to see how awful she felt...I couldnt do it. It opened my eyes to see that if I took my own life how many others lives I would scar. I am still saddened...however I am living my life to the fullest and no matter how far gone I feel..I will never give up. Just my opinion.


ninja_nikki says:

Posted on 19 Dec 2010

:'( That's really horrible....Please just don't blame yourself. It's not your fault at all, you did what you thought was right. I've been to funerals pleanty of times, but not for someone that commited suicide. So, it must be hard what you and xXxScreamingMaydayxXx are going through. I hope you get better and may she rest in peace. I totally agree with xXxScreamingMaydayxXx....I have had thoughts. I know I would never actually follow throught, but even thinking about it is bad enough. But then I realized if I did do it how many people I'd be hurt...So I'm just going to live life to the fullest. :)


becca_16 says:

Posted on 19 Dec 2010

i agree with you xXxScreamingMaydayxXx. If anyone who has read this is thinking about committing suicide, don't. It's not a way of revenge, or having a final say. You won't get to see people's reactions once your gone. You don't get to change your mind halfway through....There's this image that haunts me...i picture her hanging herself...and i picture her changing her mind a few seconds before it killed her...and not being able to do anything... i picture her mum walking in on her her... Suicide is never the answer. And im sorry for you xXxScreamingMaydayxXx....


fathima says:

Posted on 20 Dec 2010

yah it's really really sad! i just dono what to say,no words, oh...I can understand ur pain. it's not easy thing to overcome the remembrance of her. but surely time will heal the pain. don blame urself 4 whatever happened.


flakaflores says:

Posted on 09 Jan 2011

that is so sad iam sorry went i was reading i stared to cry . know i will pay attention to wat all my friends say


becca_16 says:

Posted on 20 Dec 2010

Yes, it is absolutely awful. Thankyou so much. xx


becca_16 says:

Posted on 20 Dec 2010

That's awful! I'm sorry that happened to you...i can't imagine how it coloured your childhood. Don't ever give up, keep at it, and remember people care for you. xx


becca_16 says:

Posted on 20 Dec 2010

Even the fact that you thought about it is absolutely awful. Nobody should even see it as an option. Live life, its worth it x


becca_16 says:

Posted on 20 Dec 2010

Yeh it is sad. Yeh i hate reading (and writing) stuff like my blog. But then i remind myself its a real problem and if i don't know about it...if the world doesn't know about it, it can't be stopped. I hope everything with your friend works out for the better. Your welcome x


becca_16 says:

Posted on 21 Dec 2010

Thanks fathima, it means a lot.

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